allmydreams's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- i'm a heartbreaker / it's just my way mmm. i'm about to go back to bed for an hour, but i feel bad about not writing very much lately. is it sort of sad that i feel a sense of duty to my diary? in the end, the annoyance of it all is justified because it gives me the ability to look back on things. and well, that's probably my favorite thing to do. i've been reading "prozac nation" by elizabeth wurtzel since friday. i just can't put it down...it's like someone is explaining my life to me. at one point she says, "i'm always missing someone or someplace or something, i'm always trying to get back to some imaginary somewhere. my life has been one long longing." anyway, it's a really good book. i don't really remember the last thing i wrote in here...did i talk about this weekend, or was that just in my head? on friday i wandered around pearl street, vaguely shopping for i'm not sure what. i had to go to a dinner at the cheesecake factory at 6:00. it was sort of fun, i guess, but it's probably been made clear by now that i don't do well with large groups of girls. i had the miso salmon, which was wonderful. sometimes going to restaurants grosses me out though...it's disgusting how much food they give you at that place. some people got salads that looked like they could feed a small country. come on, don't they know that boulder is full of anorexic college girls? they ought to adjust their food presentation strategy. i was surprised at how many people ordered cheesecake though...hmmm, knowing the journalism crowd, most of it probably got barfed up later. i resisted both the urges for cheesecake and vomitting and took a long walk down pearl street instead. after a failed attempt at calling matt, i went to urban outfitters and bought some sexxy skivvies and then to trident to restock on books. i got "nausea" by sartre and the aformentioned "prozac nation." both of these books sort of get me down, but they're great, so whatever. at some point i realized that i had absolutely no clue what time it was, so i decided to head back to my car on the opposite end of the mall. it seemed quite safe at the time, but after reading about all the assaults lately, i'm going to think twice about catering to my loner tendancies at night. some girl was abducted from the mall that night and two guys tried to assault her on the boulder creek path...all too close to my apartment. it also makes me glad that evan and i gave becca a ride to her car on saturday night... oh but man i was happy when the song playing on the radio when i got in my car was luna's version of "bonnie and clyde." blah. what else? allison and i navigated through the insane parade going on on saturday and went to ben and jerry's and then chilled at trident. we sort of read, and i drank coffee, but mostly we just talked and talked. i wish allison was happier with her appearance...i think she's one sexy bitch. when we left, we saw jared, and now allison knows the man behind those sexy abs hehe. that night evan and i went to sushi zanmai for liz's bday and drank saki and watched weirdos and hoes do kareoke. fun shit. after that we went to the eighties party (not really dressed up as anything because ALLISON BAILED ON US...we were gonna be three's company. damnit.) and i got wasted sooo fast. i guess i didn't really eat anything much besides mango lime sorbet and coffee on saturday, so a tiny bit of weed from the hookah, about half a party cup of beer, and the previously noted saki were all i needed to become extremely intoxicated. i think evan and i were putting on a bit of display over on the couch, but oh well, such is life. i'm getting really tired with this entry...hmmm...sunday we played around and had lunch with allison and soaked everything with squirt guns....then we got all prepped out and went to the journalism scholarship dinner, which was way lame except for the free drink tickets we got. yep. one beer and one glass of wine later, i was pretty bombed... i love the hypocrisy of cu's drinking policy that allows for me to drink, underage, on campus, for free, at a function that is honoring me for my academic achievements...but forces me to write a five page paper and do ten hours of community service for having a few legal aged drinkers in my room during my last night of living in the goddamn honors dorm. hmph. anyway. so then we indie-fied ourselves in the parking lot and went to the postal service show in denver. i think pretty much everyone there was dissapointed by the lack of rocking, but as milkman dan/zack said, "what did we expect?" i mean shit, half of their music is made on a mac laptop. i saw a surprising amount of people i know, though, and that was pretty cool. i guess death cab's popularity attracted a more mainstream crowd at this show. oh well...i'm just psyched as hell for the flaming lips/liz phair/starlight mints show in june. yeah...so yesterday my day went something like this: put on nerdy clothes, wrote music paper about indie rock, somehow got hit on a lot despite nerdy clothes, had classes, had job interview, got hired at job but hours of job are not enough to bother with job (well, those are my thoughts as of now), drank extremely huge cup of coffee, had more classes, got an A on my aesthetics paper, got hit on again, came home and fucked around, read my book, talked on the internet, starved, went to target, went to evan's and watched "the ali g show" (egqregqrgqg sooooo damn funny!!!) and took polaroids and then passed out after lots of making out. yeah, something like that. oh damn, i never talked about last thursday. basically, it involved shrinky dinks, pot cookies, the bar the the broker inn, a gin and tonic, a smoking room, middled aged people dancing to c+c music factory, a transvestite dj who granted my request for "informer" by snow, convincing adam and allison to come experience the madness, stealing place settings from the nearby restaurant, and making out with evan in a discreet location. heh. ok, that's enough for now. eat it. 9:07 am - 2003-04-29 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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