allmydreams's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- some things must go this way so here i am again, in my usual spot these days...wasting time on the computer. i could be sleeping. outside police sirens cut through the silence....likely on the prowl for intoxicated college students (not that i'm one to talk tonight). i just got home from tulagi...an interesting experience indeed, though i now feel the need to take a shower (even though i took one just a few hours ago after i finished working out). something about anonymous bodies rubbing all over me just makes me feel....not so fresh. it was cool, though...i guess. i saw that hot guy i see occasionally and raf of course tried to embarass me. however, seeing as though my "pre-game" beer buzz had essentially worn off, i wasn't very thrilled. all in all though, it was a great day. last night i hung out with this guy justin until like 3 in the morning...just completely lost track of time walking around, sitting around, talking about nothing and everything. i really enjoyed it though...and the more i think about it the more i realize something about him intrigues me. but anyway, because of this, i didn't actually fall asleep until about 4, and i didn't wake up until like 12:20...ten minutes before my first class...so i just decided to blow it off. i read a little bit and then when i finally got up and started getting ready, i noticed i felt kind of weird. when i was drying my hair i noticed i was REALLY dizzy...and then i realized i hadn't consumed solid food in over a day...so i did the unthinkable and went to the hard drive, because by that time the cafeteria was closed. anyway, to make a long story short, their food sucks, and i ended up feeling even shittier for the rest of the day. i got a horrible cramp when i was working out and something tells me that damn sandwich had something to do with it. but anyway, as i said earlier, it was a really great day. i had a nice long talk with liz earlier and it came up that two girls from my high school that go here are transfering because they don't like it. for some reason that really upset me...i guess i was a bit homesick at first myself, but ever since i went home for fall break i realized i just hadn't excepted the change yet. you can't go back in time. we'll never be in high school again. every time i go outside i'm reminded how beautiful it is here...especially now that it's autumn, my favorite season. late this afternoon i was walking to campus to see a screening of "cecil b. demented" for my mass media class and i couldn't help but feel totally at peace. everything is so vividly colored, from the banana yellow and tangerine orange colored trees, the green grass, the sky that really is sky blue..every color in a box of crayola crayons. and the mountains...incredible. i like how it's getting dark earlier. i like listening to music just softly enough so i can hear the voices passing by me, and sports teams and the marching band practicing. it's like an abercrombie ad come to life...it's almost impossible to pass farrand field without seeing people throwing a frisbee or tossing a football around. and i look at all them, and i think to myself that it's enough just to watch them. everyone here is so beautiful--not necessarily in a physically perfect kind of way, but in a young, alive, healthy kind of way. and so i smile, with each bike or skateboard that passes me by. 10:30 pm - 2001-10-18 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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